Twenty-ten!

2010 is at last, here. It seems like yesterday when 2009 began and now it's over, and it's time to forget the old and allow new things to enter our lives. Many things have happened, good and bad.. a few of the major things are..well..start with the bad. I could have done better for my results and regretted, but I'm gonna work harder and not be lazy anymore! Just 11 more months till I'm a free man! Then there's of course a few other stuff that I wished I could do. Good stuff, I got better as a guitarist! and I'm now on the guitarists list if needed for the zone!! An accomplishment that came with sacrifice, humility, passion and a servant's heart. Easy as it may seem, it wasn't an easy journey, but I always remember, that when I play, it's not to show off my skills, but it's for God, to praise and worship him! And I will enjoy myself whenever I'm playing, regardless of whoever that is leading. However, it won't be easy and some of you readers may know why, but I hope I'll be able to do it. Along the way, me as cgc, now turned into a helper. Again, as reluctant as I may be, I'm gonna fufill my calling. Why reluctant? Reasons that I can only share with some, unfortunately. On the material side, I finally got the phone that I really really wanted! BB!! Although it's not Bold, but I'm contented with Curve. It's good enough. Got an iMac too! Power of Apple is just too amazing! Many other stuff came my way too, learnt from mistakes, remembered the God Moments and relived past experiences. I just wanna thank a few people..
Krystle Ng!! well, what can I say? one of the best friends I could ever have! Thank you for being the one that I can share my burdens with. I'll never forget the times that we shared..the happy times, hilarious times and those times that I was there to hear you rant. Seeing you grow from that pig that didn't know much about church, who was always not happy, but now, a more mature pig serving God, joyful, cuter(*ahem*), although angry at times!! but it's okay!! hahaha! Glad to have you as a friend! :D

Isabel Lo!! Glad I caught up with you after 2 years since we last met!! You were the one that made me smile when I was at my lowest just a week ago? Btw..that picture is so unglam and hilarious can!! And it's on your blog template?! haha! And just to let you know, you were literally my msn chat buddy recently, if you didn't chat with me, my msn would be just plain boring. See you soon yeah! :D
To the two of you: Let's all work hard this coming year for everything that we do and get the results that we want!! Forget about the bad and sad moments of 2009 and let's move on!!

Willie!! What an honour it is to be serving God together with you, under your leadership and as the BEST CGL of CK Zone 2009!! I learnt alot and grew to be a more mature person although I already look mature enough for a 15-year old. *laughing* Thank you for always encouraging me and showing care and concern. Also for giving me the opportunity to play for events other than in cell group. By faith, I will get better and bring down stronger presence of God!! I will of course miss playing guitar as you lead P&W as the two cell groups begin to hold different meetings in the coming months! All the advice and the things you thought me to look out for while playing, I will always remember! Especially putting on a smile. As I began to smile, I felt that I could enjoy just playing what I love and leave the stress/anxiety of a new song or a difficult song. I also found out that I got better faster, and I could feel God's presence even stronger. Thank you for encouraging me to SMILE!! Once again, I will miss being in your cell group but I know the reasons why and I'll work my way to where I'm supposed to be. Thank you again for raising me up to be one of the helpers in the cell group, as someone to look up to to, to the new people, and to share the burdens of the cell group. Even Cheryl encouraged me to eventually be a CGL at 16, she said that I have that cell leader face, is it true? haha! Wishing you all the best in your studies, and the things that you are pursuing!! :D
It's 4.40am, time to hit the shacks!!

MOVED TO http://life-inyourhands.blogspot.com/.

Whatever!!

This blog is somehow taking all my rants like nobody's business but who cares? a possibility i thought possible is now never possible. sounds cheam? wth. dun wanna give a crap abt it. guitar lessons have been going well except that i need a whole load of practice. went for leaders' meeting aft lesson, message was awesome!! i'll be thr every week if i can!! pst ck's messages nv fail to impact, inspire and encourage. today's message was on Righteousness, ours'? or God's? he brought this point which i thought was good: "if u're closer to pst, it does not mean u're more holy or of a higher profile," then on the train, mae told me that mark was bragging abt how close he is to pst ck. hmmm..can i tell him "u're closer, so?! big deal?! for the wrong reasons u're close la" and on the train we also talked abt some other stuff. hahah, dun wish to go into details. renovations are almost completed but the house is also turning into a place not even fit for humans to live in and i can't open the iMac cos i got no space to put!! roars!! pissed these few days..i can't get a new phone, room is filled with rubbish, dunno when everything will end. okay..tats it from me for now. manss..i shld have brought both my guitars then jermain wouldnt have broke a string and had to play without a plug in. next week, i'm gonna just bring my acoustic and use SOMA's guitar.

DAMMIT!! THIS IS SO BLOODY UNFAIR. WHEN SIS PHONE AUTO SHUTS-DOWN YOU BUY A NEW PHONE AND WHEN MINE CAN'T EVEN TAKE OR MAKE CALLS, YOU GIVE ME 101 REASONS TO NOT BUY ME A NEW PHONE!! + YOU BOUGHT SIS A NEW PHONE USING MY CONTRACT!! WTH!! PISSED LIKE MAD!!

i'm back blogging. it's 12.51am and i'm still awake watching Pandemic. nice show. been hell of a week but hell went away as soon as it came. started my guitar lessons @ SOMA and i'm liking my lessons. after boring fret navigations, i'll be learning the fun stuff so i gotta work hard on my basics of the basics. got my Strat which i gotta live with it before i decide what to do with it at the end of next year when i get my American/Japanese Tele. muahahaha..a must have in every guitar collection. Ben, my guitar instructor's american deluxe tele is damn nice to look at but now way am i gonna afford that. anyway, guitar lessons aside. I'm a MM now and it was kinda unexpected as to why the promotion came so fast and so suddenly but it motivated me to serve more and get better. these few days haven been going well for me except that it's packed back-to-back with events and more events. no time to relax and especially with the workers doing renovations at 10 in the morning when i'm still sleeping. no choice but to live with it until next week, hopefully. later..gonna meet up with bel in the afternoon then going BS make-up. thurs, hell of a day, hope it goes smooth. can't bathe at home cus both toilets are not functional yet, probably going to safra to bathe then going to ymca. might be playing for P&W. it's been some time since i played in a larger than cell group scale. alrights..time to go to bed..sch in 5 hours. Goodnight!! I'm always there if you need me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

it's my 15th and i came here just to bring a bit of life to this blog. on the verge of abandonment cos i've been updating on fb rather than here. oh well..kinda lazy too. anw..brief update on wads up and wads not so up. past few weeks was a roller coaster, big highs and lows. can't rmb much but the sermons on Job lifted me up and i learnt that it was past of strengthening my walk with God. pst CK's meeting was an eye opener and i must say it's 1 of the best sermons i have heard him preached. impacted greatly!! and because of the message, i believe that i did my bio paper with the Jesus' Tribe with me. i can almost say i breezed through the paper and thank you syahrul of highlighting the important stuff i needa study for. hoping for the best results tmr. results aside, my week will be occupied by more practising on my guitar, both electirc and acoustic. thurs is gonna be my first lesson thr. gonna absorb the most out of it and quickly progress. not long after, i'll be back at Poh's hse to further train myself! tats just long term planning..but a tele is coming my way at the end of my O's!! tats for sure! recently, i've been seeing things which were always thr but i just didn't realise because i simply tagged along. but now, i feel that a change has come over me, i have no idea what that change is but i feel that i'm no longer the me from the past. better, stronger, and recently, everytime when i have my quiet time, God's presence just comes immediately. how great is that! being a helper is not easy? yes..it may seem to be a demanding task but with God i know all things are possible..if God has given me this opportunity, He will supply my needs to be the best i can be! okay..thats all for now..will be back when i'm free. but before i go, THANK YOU MY BELOVED CG FOR THE WALLET AND SHIRT!! APPRECIATE IT ALOT AND THEY CAME AT A NO BETTER TIMING!! also..KRYSTLE NG, FOR BEING THE FIRST AND STAYING UP JUST TO SEND ME A BDAY WISH! THANK YOU THANK YOU. LOVE YOU! (disclaimer to readers: dun tink too much, it's not the bf-gf kinda love) Goodnight people!!

seems like my blogger dock on W7 is not working..my post a few days ago wasn't posted. anw..here goes. been away for awhile..couple of things happened and well..hmm. didn't have cg on ytd but went for fellowship, food was good and everything..ended the night quite well..stress free. alrights..this thing kinda happened a week ago so yeah. a guitarist rang me up on thurs night at around 11-plus-12. kinda late to ring me up to ask for advice..and the fact that i'm not close to this person. so this person asked me for the keys he shld play in and how to play and stuff like tat. @ 11pm?! ur cell is the next day for God's sake!! anw..kinda pissed at the attitude but wth..i dun care. not my business. whahaha. wad i learnt in that few months under Brother Poh has really left a great impact in my life. not just the skills of playing guitar but just the simple discipline of Christian life. he once told us that when he is preparing a new song, he would spent countless hours trying to get the song perfect before he would play it or dun play at all. me n the other 2 guys were awe-struck at the short sharing before he ended the lesson. he also shared on wad makes a great guitarist. this i'm not gonna say. SECRET!!! exams are ending in 2 weeks and i'm off to SOMA!! yesa!! mee first electric coming my way!! woohoo!!

DO ZONE rocks!!

i'm back to blogger!! tumblr wasn't nice to me. wahaha. anw..thurs, this i gotta say. ms ong, me chem teacher, wanted to talk to me cos a few of my teachers realised that i've been falling asleep in class lately but i haven't done so in chem!! heheh..biased? wadever. instead of talking in the classroom, went to the library, then she asked the question.."so wad happened?" i said nothing though but i did tell her smth. can't say it here but felt better after talking to her. hahaha..and i left wit her saying smth cheeky and hilarious. wad do u expect, she's only 20 something..then today..got pissed by a bastard tat told me tat thr was no remedial on thurs and i got sent for in-house!! wth..and that mdm tai didn't even care wad happened! i was not at the classroom lah! how i know! but i made a choice to heck care and focus on wad's gonna happen aft sch!! DO zone 1st combined meeting!! my experience playing with stephen was great, picked up a few pointers too. n i guess he being thr playing with me took the nervousness away as i was standing on stage to play! stage presence, the million $$ smile, position and all that. but i got through!! somebody say Praise the Lord!! although i was lost for a moment during 2nd worship i think but nth major. i thot i played better than i thought i would and the chords tat stephen insisted i play which i really dun like playing, kind of improved my skills as i played throughout the night! we both got quite a number of comments saying that P&W was awesome and even as i played praise, i felt God's presence filling the room already! Daniel then shared abt John 15. impacted greatly. he commented abt this point where when u are serving the Kingdom of God, the devil comes to steal, kill and destroy rite? so it makes sense when u decide to follow God fully, the devil will do and make all kinds of obstacles to stop your way into the Kingdom. eg, flooding ur mind abt leaving church, lack of recognition, down times, etc. but if we do the right thing - pray and push on, God's love is sufficient enuf to keep the devil away from wad God has install for u. and then he shared on a couple more points and ended with a time of ministry. if i had not been playing, i would cmf go down! God was just so real tonight! then aft the whole meeting ended, daniel came to me n stephen and asked us to put down our guitars cos he wanted to pray for us. then he joked saying that we wun fall 1 la. anw, even as he put his arm around my shoulder, my legs started to become jelly for awhile alr. it's jus God. "let them not have jus the skill, but have your anointing that will flow through them". aft tat packed up..ate at khatib, something happened and it's disturbing me big time. gotta wait till sun to clarify. okayy, it's 2am alr and i've been awake for 21 hours alr. tired. Nights readers! Bye!

Bye Blogger!

tis will be my last post b4 i move on to Tumblr. anw..lappie crashed few days back so didnt update and now it's running W7. so cool!! i was praying a few days ago..then somehow God showed me 2 ppl and compared them,
person A:
-successful
-contented
-attached, healthy relationships
-prays, reads the Bible
-faithful to ministry
-puts in 100% everytime
-always thr when u need them
-knows what the right and wrong things are

person B:
-struggling
-not contented, although has $
-uses his problems to gain sympathy
-not attached, problems among friends
-seldom prays n reads the Bible
-not serving
-slipshot work
-influences others to do the wrong things

so..wads the bigg diff apart from those above?? simple. A has the Word of God in their mind, soul n heart. why? the Word of God is essientially just God in words. A could be earning lesser than B in his/her job and has to support himself but he does not complain, while B, although earning more, is not faithful towards God in his/her finances. so i've found out tat the Word of God is ever so important aft the messages i heard by Pst. Tan n willie, during Leader's Meeting and multiplication cell. i've also been thinking, wad r the odds of person B influencing a young Christian tat is starting to mature and rise up...very likely possible. when tat happens, may God bless person B.

recently, a few of us had been discussing abt the standard of cg now as compared to Derrick's days. how good if we were to bring the standard then back to now. honestly, i feel that i'm also not up to standard recently. and i'm gonna raise the standard! hahaha. just fri, the meeting was good, but a few ppl had to spoil the whole atmosphere. 5.30pm, u were at commonwealth, u were supposed to reach at 5.45pm, tiong bahru, n the reply i got was indescribable. pissed for a while then. P&W, i kinda enjoyed it although the sound wasn't coming out well..but somehow, somebody didn't. anw, enuf ranting and the standard will hopefully go back to how it was aft multiplication when ppl start to rise up to the occasion. last but not least...HAPPY HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, GUOWEI!!! HOPE U LIKE THE SHIRT!!

Saddists!!!

hey peeps, i'm back from wad i thought was a disgusting night whr i found out tat thr are so many saddistic ppl in Cambodia and the countries around it. omg!! they actually torture animals for food!! dun wanna talk abt tat..make me wanna puke! mum's cousin also brought his wife to be(from Cambodia..met ar work) i honestly thought tat she was not tat pretty although everybody..n i mean EVERYBODY says so. then when i told mum, she went on blabbering rubbish..saying tat i was biased! (if u know wad i'm talking abt) but for me..the person she compared to beats mum's cousin's wife to be HANDS DOWN!! FACE FLAT TO THE GROUND!! WAHAHAHA!!! anw..went to Helping Hand to look for Happie. tat was the only reason why i tagged along if not i would be sleeping at home due to boredom! wahahaha. but Happie wasn't thr!! my sis cried. Rofl. then uncle chia, the CEO thr said tat he took Happie home cos he injured his paws. not used to the rough roads, too pampered at home!! anw..Happie's still walking with a slight limp but it's much better than before.not as active but still crazy over food and his toys!

this is only the hind paw..the front ones were worst but i didn't get a chance to snap a pic.

awoken unwillingly cos of some damn effing remedial and this has to go on until thurs. wth. i can't even get a day of rest during the holidays. fri - multiplication (ps. good food?) sat - no idea yet. sun - svc. ytd wasn't such a great day due to some ppl n some issues but i'm guessing i'll have to face them no matter what so y bother abt it but thr is 1 issue tat i just had to think abt and i realised tat wad big Jt said was so true! i'm alr gave up but she's gonna help me.THANKYOU.! blessed to have such a great cell member. and ALSO.. my AHBOY!!!! who was thr to hear all my rants!!!! THANKYOUTHANKYOU!!! MOMO LOVES YOU!! great to hav tis sonof mine. wahahaha. anw..tmr i'm gonna go see Happie see how he's doin @ Helping Hand. boy, u coming along?

Last Days...

last night in my big big room and last day seeing Happie at home causing all that trouble and the house is so quiet now without his loud breathing and his crazy barking for attention. it's so weird not having him around :( . but at least i know tat there are ppl that are dog lovers that are taking care of him at The Helping Hand. a special shoutout to Anthony who was so patient wit him when Happie got out of the car and handled him so well!! looking forward to mon..gonna go see how he's doing. anybody wan follow?? it's just not right at home when it's all so quiet and there's no furry thing lazing abt in the house and trying to grab anything he thinks is edible...Happie will be missed. bye.

back from somehow an enjoyable time @ the studio. kinda like the gear they hav thr although i didnt manage to get the tone i wanted but anyway...recorded but god and beautiful. vid up on fb soon. 2 hrs is not a long time and time jus flew without us even realising. aft tat went dinner at kfc wit gw then trained home. the whole train journey we were talking abt cg and stuff. so many things are not going rite and i cant bear to see the problems worsen. arghh..stress!!! help?! gotta find one day and straighten out every problem..but the question tats running through my mind is tat is thr really a problem?? or its jus personal preference towards others?? next wk is multiplication cell alr. if this goes on..dun even wanna think abt it.

Thank You Pst. CK!!

today's svc was super good!! pst phil's message was impacting and easy to understand..simple jokes and revelation. next 2 wks are gonna be power packed and i'm gonna be busy. tues..jamming. fri..moving hse. nxt whole wk..preparing for multiplication. God!! it's up to u to make all this a huge success!! gonna pray more even when i dun feel like it! aft svc, went for NXGEN luncheon by pst..a big thank you to him!! he paid for everything as an appreciation for our support to NXGEN. super good food!!! the lunch marks the end of the course and i learnt a lot and a lot of open doors opened up for me as a guitarist..if not for NXGEN..i wun be playing at a zone level and learn stuff jermain and co, i wun be doing sound, i wun know the leaders who are so fun n funny and of cos the lessons learnt. THANK YOU PST AND THE NXGEN TEAM!!



"hearts gone astray, deep in hurt when they go"

JAMMING ON TUES @ STUDIO!! YEAH!!! gonna play through a marshall stack for the bery very first time! woohoo!!

ytd outing @ marina barrage was so-so. hickups here n thr but generally it was okay. willie evaluate and i also agree with him tat the standard in cg dropped quite a bit..a few times, willie himself had to pour water for himself, me n yq cos no one bought bottled water. so nxt wk's meeting is gonna get better. no more sub-standard meetings!!!! n it would be the last. 11/9..multiplication @ Riverwalk. W52-something. but cg is gonna be held in the north..so the W=west is whr?? hahahah..oh well.

STRECHED!!

jus woke up from a somewhat a 6hr sleep as i stayed through DO zone's 1ST!!! OPM. didn't expect to stay and didn't regret a single thing. thank God for mum and dad that they came to pick me up at 3am!!!! in the morning. hu the heck will do tat?!?! last minute i played and it went pretty well except that i was a bit stuck during praise..tat was my first time looking at those chords!! but i think i managed it quite well. a few wrong chords here n thr. DO also said i improved a lot from the previous time he heard me. backtrack...so aft sch i flew home then flew to look for Max and Krystle then flew over to Riverwalk. so i was literally flying everywhere but thank God the sun was not thr. haha.

yeay..jus done restringing my guit with EXPs and it's sounding freaking good although i kinda prefer the Martin's Shenghong had on my guit a month ago. anw..it's gonna go out again to shenghong and yongqiang. oh well..dun play for a few days wun hurt tat much. "Expulsive power of a new affection..." Dr. A.R Bernard. now i know what in the world he was preaching abt at Leader's Meeting. but i'm not gonna whatever that has happened bring me down. i'll cling on to Him!



my phone seems to be getting further from me and i don't bother to look at it anymore.

Samuel! WAKE UP!! YOU'RE KILLING YOURSELF!!

not the best of days but it was all right. except tat a few things made me sad, pissed, annoyed and frustrated. oh well..wth. dun give a damn alr. hahaha. sec 1 investiture was quite a success and i was stressed out the moment i reached the hall when i saw them everywhere..i mean they shld be at 1 place only rite. anw..gathered them..attire check..n went through wad they needa do. last minute plan changes but i got them covered. thanks doug for covering for me while i was half naked??? backstage..joshua needed my long pants for his blazer. hahaahaha. so anw..everything went quite well. pics another day..lazy to upload. finally..today had sometime for a movie! watched Where Got Ghost? with Krystle. i thot it was quite meaningful at the end. trademark of CHC and Jack Neo. wahahaha. anw..the past 2 wks had been kinda shitty. dun wanna elaborate..wanna know..ask me personally..damnn..it's so fake. to myself: u..tis stupid guy..for wad the hell r u thinking so much?! u have been a sucker since....er..u know la. man..u're killing yourself day aft day. and even better will come ur way so forget the past!!

2nd post of the day..not bad. almost a month has passed and u have changed in jus a few seconds. wow! change for the better or worse? definitely better. seeing the more happy n on fire u is great!! but somehow something somewhere doesnt feel rite..could it be tat night which changed everything? hahahaha..damn emo post..shit..dunno wads wrong wit me alr..think the fever got the better of me. blablabla...